poetry

  • Afterlives

    Afterlives

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    Afterlives is a series that walks the viewer through the minds of mortals, bringing together interviews, music, and poetry, dance, and film. Each track touches on life’s most unanswerable, yet compelling, question: What happens after death? Afterlives is in collaboration with over 40 talented artists and interviewees.

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    The premise of Afterlives is simple: I asked strangers in NYC, California, and Wisconsin, as well as family and friends, what they think happens after we die. Each person’s response gets its own segment, set to music with an accompanying short film. Watched in order, the series is interspersed with poetry and narrations that build an emotional continuity and contemplation, that arcs through the interviewee’s discourses on death.

    In the process of creation, I considered my main goal to be sonic, with ‘visual accompaniment,’ instead of what is often vice-versa in our visual culture. The ears are the last sense to go when we die, and inform our reality, never blinking. Pythagoras lectured from behind a curtain to take advantage of the ear’s power to listen. That’s why for Afterlives, the soundtrack can standalone as an album — the popularity of music and podcasts through today’s headphones offers a powerful place for art and interview to merge together during everyday moments, encouraging presentness and reckoning with mortality. The videos use the circularity, repetition, and building of music to add emotional depth to the spoken audios on death.

    The total album is around 90 minutes, with each of the 30 tracks averaging 2.5 minutes. Some are more instrumental, factual, poetic, or emotional than others. Each track is a mosaic within a mosaic — the accompanying video splices together locations, moods, and choreographies that light up the viewer’s own imaginative realms of meditative peace and future dreams, in between one’s physical and spiritual bodies. Oceans and bluffs merge with snowy winters and soft sunsets. If you stumble across one track from this series, you will be pleasantly surprised to find there are more along each theme, and many more that offer a different viewpoint, weaving together.

    I felt each response deserved its full time, and was best understood when each person’s response was kept whole and un-fragmented. Initially, I had thought to blend them all together into the audio for a whirling visual story. However, the anthropologist in me sought to highlight each response’s own epistemic merit. My creativity could best accentuate them by accompanying and juxtaposing, rather than by morphing the very nature of the responses.

    The end result is a 90 minute album that can be watched and listened to as a whole or in small pieces. The soul-touching sentiments of everyday people on the question of mortality are laid in flowerbeds of music, nature, and dance, in an artistic docu-series that resounds strongly with the truths we hold dear, and unknowns we foray into, as human beings, who walk this Earth step in step together until every last one of us meets our mortal fate.

  • Art on Dimensions: Selections and Essay

    Visual arts selections:

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    Poetry Selections:

    Essay:

    This selection of visual art and poetry pieces articulates themes which occur throughout life — namely the paradoxes/portals lying amongst the dimensions of ‘here and now,’ and in the border between mundane and universal imaginative spaces. My artwork is often inspired by the various planes of existence that we dream through in our day-to-day lives. We indulge in potentialities, weaving in and out of various lucidities to co-construct reality with one another. For example, my pieces “9th Dimension” and “10th Dimension” are explorative documentations of a recurring dream I had in 2020. Dreamscape demands a contemplation of interconnectedness — the space between ourselves and every other thing is fundamentally similar, existing within and beyond awareness.

    Similarly, my piece “Our House” is a form and structure emerging from a loose watercolor wash wherein I attempt to literally draw out the feelings of home — an animate idea shared in our collective memories. Here, the loose colors of ‘house’ is the space which births the lines of ‘home,’ complementary yet self-transcendent. “Latent” more specifically explores the choreography of art-making. The piece’s name, and form, are reminiscent of the late-night energies it was created with. The process of creating this piece was a meditative dance, concretized in paint, bringing the ephemeral into the physical, acting as a portal in a way.

    In “Breath,” I am reflecting on the collective pandemic trauma’s physicalization in space. The piece was inspired by the textures and forms of various cloth masks that I have — the two vertical lines represent both elastic ear-pieces on masks, and two socially distanced people — both of which are physically separated but vitally united in effort. A mouth-like liminality emerges as these two lines define and transcend boundaries between the internal and external, from the cellular to the societal.

    As for the poems, “Fawning From Vitality,” is an exploration of temporalities. Reflecting on the smallness of the present in the grandiosity of existence, it is an attempt to cope with the fatigue of searching for meaning across temporal leaps and bounds. Likewise, “Refraction” is an exploration of spatiality. I wrote this poem on the subway, as my environment refracted into multiplicities of spatial existences of myself, and my fellow-train car passengers. Where the subway train becomes the ancient earthworm, I sifted through the desires and delusions that fill the gaps between ‘here’ and ‘there’ on these mundane paths — offering portals into imaginative infinities.

  • Earthly Romances

    A poem by Lily Selthofner.

    What A Weird Place to End Up in by Lily Selthofner.

    the sun grew in two sizes 

    and the flowers became mountains.

    teetering above

    little ants orbiting summer skin

    mistakes float on falling leaves

    aching knees

    marching westward

    towards redemption

    sorting open skies

    with thunder breaths 

    and forgiving dances 

    antsy steps into vastness.

  • Guest

    A poem by Lily Selthofner.

    Sis by Lily Selthofner.

    the heart aches in little universes and big bangs.

    an illusive dance tangles the wind

    in and out – dying before your chosen birth

    you sway in peace, sensory guest

    the instruments of experience

    sound only with the steps of the dancer.

  • The Appeal of Cremation

    A poem by Lily Selthofner, 2021.

    Photo by Lily Selthofner, 2016.

    release into the smoke

    ashy fiery flames

    burn the same as ancient wood.

    a rising phoenix

    or a slow decompose

    earthy wormey dirt

    breaks down my baby bones.

    an immortal transition

    away from life’s debt

    face melting, skin burning 

    maggots fill the lily.

    inhale, exhale, stop.

    which to choose:

    to fly or to rot.

  • Creek

    A poem by Lily Selthofner, 2021.

    A Small Crossing by Lily Selthofner

    time, insurmountable and irrelevant

    children, innocent and…We are love 

    able, craving simple warmth in tumultuous weather…

    sharp edges drawing silent blood.

    a future with… a present without

    I pour from a cup filled with riveting ocean waves

    sending sprinkles from afar

    with uncertainty, may we dive.

  • Washed Out

    A poem by Lily Selthofner, 2021.

    Eastern Horizon by Lily Selthofner.

    the same force that rolls waves upon the shore

    sweetens breeze and echoes arial song

    the backbone

    brushes a woman’s dress as she walks

    and screeches to her silent serenade

    early ocean foam carries scavengers

    little trinkets:

    wind-washed seashells

    casting little shadows in the late morning sun.

    the waves ricochet

    in fortune days

    hiding empty messages from above

  • The Mystery of the Future

    A poem by Lily Selthofner, 2022.

    Photo by Lily Selthofner, 2022.

    cyclical, seasonal

    what burden to bear?

    the weight may sparsely disappear

    ease

    spots trouble in the distance

    the telescope of uncertainty 

    smeared with the fog of conditioning

    sticky fingers wiping away 

    attachment to the good, bad, looming and lingering

    in favor of a lighter next time.

  • Recycling

    A poem by Lily Selthofner, 2021.

    Photo by Lily Selthofner, 2022.

    a looming threat manifests

    in each gray moment unspent

    simply sedated, devoid of sacred 

    anxiously awaited in bed.

    sometimes,

    I miss when things were fun and easy.

    sometimes,

    things are fun and easy. 

    the breeze ties your hair back

    so you see, clearly 

    the universe is giving.

    ‘wasting away’

    is gathering the strength

    to sink into ease again.

  • Refraction

    A poem by Lily Selthofner, 2021.

    Breath by Lily Selthofner

    people all around me

    are they hurting, are they healing?

    are they writing, are they reading?

    are they feeling, seeing

    the world through which they hurry?

    an imperfectly manicured journey, scrolling vulnerability 

    as complex opacity confuses passerby

    eyes blinded by neon lights 

    while hands

    grasp towards what is transparent.

    Do you belong here:

    in the city, on the street?

    or with ancient earthworms digging under your feet?

    may we see each other in timeless hues, idle mysteries uncovered.

  • Curiosity

    A poem by Lily Selthofner, 2021.

    Photo by Lily Selthofner, 2022.

    wheels push the days into months

    learned figures of god to follow

    reality left unswallowed

    loving hugs to marvel

    with memories of source preceding,

    beauty lingering

    may each young vessel of potentiality

    emerge unscathed, wrapped in the knowledge of birdsong

    into each coming day and month

    a baby, growing old

    growing up.

  • Concrete Talons

    A poem by Lily Selthofner, January 13, 2022.

    Photo by Lily Selthofner, 2022.

    scavenging

    little moments of daydream escape.

    from school bus to subway train

    I travel

    to and from the same location.

    roads paved, from rural hometowns

    to massive Manhattan highways

    everyone waits

    for the light to change.

    We are all the same.

    Fill my backpack with your labored desires,

    so you may rest. sweet relief 

    remains submissive

    to the beck and call of heavy traffic.

  • Fatigues

    A poem by Lily Selthofner, November 7, 2021.

    Numbness by Lily Selthofner.

    hunger left unsatiated

    by an empty break.

    berate the day– 

    arrive late

    to every calling.

    a fragile child

    gripping heavy wrists

    tackles an impossible option– 

    feel or function?

    stagger through the thick mud of self-hatred

    reach for the door–

    before the enemy consumes.

    bland years stink of decay

    the soldier remains

    shackled to the frail bed frame.

  • Seven Minutes

    A poem by Lily Selthofner, 2021.

    Photo by Lily Selthofner, 2022.

    decibels sway, 

    ache and echo.

    overwhelming,

    sentimental.

    rolling wheels screech. 

    ebb and flow

    effervescent urban glow

    alarms the tired benches of gray halls,

    weeping into blankets

    of cold, timeless boredom.

  • Full Moon in Aries

    A poem by Lily Selthofner, Oct. 2021.

    A Constellation by Lily Selthofner

    don’t part

    from dreams. open eyes

    release 

    anxiety

    one foot forward

    the other lingers 

    behind 

    until the next swing.

    a dip plunging in

    seek refuge in its entirety

  • Climbing, Lost

    A poem by Lily Selthofner, November 2, 2021, Manhattan, NY.

    An Optimistic, Nostalgic Tree by Lily Selthofner

    ‘Uphill battles should never be climbed –

    alone.

    find a perch, enjoy the view

    nostalgic perceptions

    wander towards the present 

    where I may seek to take an easy step with you.’